....so, where is the truth?

hi
in these last months many many
oh fuck I was so close now to tell you everything bad that happen to me but I just open I web site right now and I discovered there is a new worship around the world:
the flying spaghetti monster.
it is such a crazy amnerican thing,the best is there is really people believe in it...
gosh
I found my god!!!!!!!! seriously I'm so laughing now...http://www.venganza.org/, just give a look!^^it's unbelieveble this is all true...
but I wanted thi post be different..
I wanted to speak about how much every day I'm getting shocked from the people here in the college. I don't want to explain it now, but we are supposed to be in the best school of the world, where people is not just to study.
it is supposed that people here is beacuse believe in something more than a simple IB license.
in two weeks we are gonna walk together all the college students and students from fvg in a walk of peace.
now, after things that happened today, I know that it is all just so without meaning.
the whole ideal I had in my mind about the walk just lost its meaning: it is such an hypocritical thing walk for peace when we are not able even to respect and love our supposed friends.
I'm speaking about a guy that today told me a very mean thing: I had to act, to play a fucking role in order to don't make him happy in his fucking purpose.
no problem in act, but this just confirmed me that it is so stupid trust in people.
I had open to much my gate to people, after had built such good realtionship with roberta e niovi. male, male, male: cogliona.
I mean, I trust completly in them, and I wont stop it. I just drop every kind of trust in all the others, until they wont demonstrate me a form of love as my sisters.
I don't trust human being, I think we are such bad being.
And today I enter a kind of war, 'cause I had to defend myself from an attack.
I don't like it, I don't like the fake of the people. I don't understand, I could not do something as that guy to anyone. I'm not angry at him, as I'm not to all the others like him: I'm angry at me.
I'm such a stupid one, so idealistic.
I have always this hope of do this world better, even if life is continuing in make me understand it cannot work.

Now I don't feel like this walk at all, even if I know I still like it.
The reason why I'm suffering now is that I know the majority of the people involved will walk it without believe in it.

for me it is the worst sware.